Wednesday, May 16, 2007

Shaking the Tears

Worship. It happened this morning. I must confess my personal worship time has been growing small. I have been on the edge of tears about everything. I teared up at the mother/daughter banquet last week because after seating everyone I couldn't find a place for the girl and me. In the slightest shake the tears flow.

This morning as I met my living room floor I surrendered. Once again. It is something constant in my life. I realized that I had felt so guilty about having these emotions that I have not been bringing them to him. I just love his patience. I dropped it all. I left my hurt and my attitude. There was a song playing on the radio that was saying Sing with me, dance with me, cry with me....It is alright to cry and have emotion...Just do it with me. How I was trying to hide.

Then another song came on and I jumped up in order to worship him with my whole self. With tears streaming down my face his words fell...It's been a while...I missed you.

I missed him too.

Here is the song that made me stand to my feet. It was played for me. At this moment in life it speaks volumes.

When I see you I have strength to face this day. In your presence all my fears are washed away.

If you have a few minutes watch this and listen to the words.


Teri said...

His peace is passing all of your human understanding. Thank You Jesus! Praying for you and your family.

Deidre said...

I can't open the video. What song is it? I'm in suspense!!

jen said...

I love that song. Had to praise God a bit just then. I'm sending you some air hugs and many prayers.

Debra said...

Deidre it is Hosanna by Paul Baloche.

Anonymous said...

i went to the passion conference in atlanta this past january, and i heard that song for the first time. those words struck me -"in your presence, all our fears are washed away." and i haven't heard that song since... until i saw this post. (perfect timing, Lord!)

i know what you mean... realizing how much you've missed him. hoping you have SWEET time with Jesus today.

marcie said...

I TOTALLY HEAR YOU!!! Seems like we are in the same spot only 792 miles away. I'm sorry I havent been there to lift you since the news:-) I'm back though, ready to encourage again. I feel ya sista and I need some Ta Mollys and Dillards. I miss you terribly.

Shelly said...

Ohhh! I just got a hold of this song off of Travis Cottrell's blog (him mentioning it was one of his favorites right now - so I had to go check it out). Whew! Amen sister...glad He draws us to Himself with new mercies.

Oh...sorry - I hopped over here off of the LPM blog (I think!) :)

On Fire For Him said...

I appreciate this post. As I am dying to just break down and cry with Him. I struggle with feeling pent up and not being able to get it out.

Maggie said...

awesome video, too! thanks for sharing your "moment".