Wednesday, January 31, 2007

Eager Anticipation...

I feel somewhat like a little child the night before Christmas. I can remember as a child how the days before Christmas would seem to drag along as the anticipation of that exciting day approached. I could hardly stand it. I would get so excited and so ancy as I counted down the days. I still enjoy Christmas very much but it seems to come much more quickly now and the joy comes not from what I get or what's in it from me but from the joy of my wife and kids and those special moments that make memories.
Lately, however, I have somewhat experienced that childlike eager anticipation as we approach a very exciting and very important time tonight. I have had the privilege of being a part of the Abilene Youth Coalition which is a bunch of youth pastors from different denominations coming together to break down the walls that separate us and hinder us from fully accomplishing what God has for us. It has been a great experience with spiritual renewal. We began what we call Abilene Invasion. It is a plan to reach this generation to Christ. The statistics that represent this generation will jar you to the core. (You can see one of my wife's recent blogs for those or ask me and I will share them with you later)
Tonight we have our first major event called A-I Briefing. We are coming together and calling for all Christian students and concerned adults to come join us. It will be a night of eye opening, of heart breaking, a night that will call us to action. I feel that a spiritual revival is on the horizon and I want to be a part of that. In us, in Abilene, a big part of that starts tonight. All the meetings, all the preparation, all the planning comes to a head tonight. It's finally here! I can't wait to see what our Lord does! That little boy inside of me just wants to run in circles as the excitement builds. Pray for us and I will keep you posted!

To be continued....

Monday, January 29, 2007

Letting it go...

Is the feeling sluggish? Or is it in reality Satan?

Last week was a great week. I should have been looking for the enemies attack. Today has been a day of random focus. I should just be honest and say lack of focus. I am bogged down in the details of life. That is where Satan likes to keep me.

This week is set to be busy. Tonight we have the kids practices and Ernest has a meeting at Beltway for AI. I am looking forward to hearing the results of this meeting. (One of the area pastors wanted to get the coalition guys together because he feels he has a word for them.) Tomorrow night is "Becoming". Becoming is a girls ministry I started here in Abilene. Wednesday is Abilene Invasion Briefing, our city wide event. Thursday we have meetings for Fields of Faith and throw in a PTO meeting that afternoon. I have a lot of paperwork that is due this Friday for a PTO program at the kids school. Saturday we have a flag football tournament for our youth scheduled. Sunday we have our services and a super bowl party that afternoon.

My point for writing this...

I do not want to get so busy that my focus moves to the stuff and not on the person. Please keep me in your prayers. Pray for our family, especially our children, that we will be given the grace to love each other through this week. It is a tendency to look past the ones you love the most when you get busy. Pray that God would be huge to us and that we will spend time with him, even when there seems to be no time.

In the midst of this week, I still feel compelled to write and study while the babes are at school. Pray for my mind to focus on what he is leading me to do. I want to follow hard after Him. I love him so much. The desire is his...on most days I do not understand it. No matter, I still want to go there.

This seems so personal to share yet I feel so comfortable in letting it go.

May the words of my mouth and the meditation
of my heart be pleasing in your sight, O Lord,
My Rock and my Redeemer.

Sunday, January 28, 2007


It was a fun evening!

We went to see the movie Catch and Release with Jennifer Gardner. I liked it but that was the extent of my feelings. There were a few awkward moments here and there. I am all about a good chick flick. I had really high hopes for this one but...

We were walking out of the theater discussing our slight disappointment..."We should have seen 'Pursuit of Happiness'"..."Yes we should have"...

In that moment we decided to skip Olive Garden and see another movie. We purchased 2 tickets to Pursuit of Happiness and quickly got in the concession line. It felt great! I think that is the most spontaneous thing we have done in a while. I know it is very sad. What can I say we have two kids. We shared a coke, hot dog, and nachos for dinner. No it is not Olive Garden but it was so much fun.

By the way we loved the Pursuit of Happiness. Great Victory! It totally takes hold of your emotions and brings you in.

Great date night!


Saturday, January 27, 2007

Youth Statistics

National Statistics and then how is breaks down for Abilene (a city with a church on every corner)

We currently have 9,838 6-12th grade students in Abilene and Wylie alone.

1/3 of teenagers have been drunk in the last month = 3280 in Abilene

1/4 of teenagers have used illegal drugs = 2460 in Abilene

8,000 contract an STD (sexually transmitted disease) each day

340,000 abortions happen to teenagers each year

1/10 teenagers are raped = 984 in Abilene

14,000 sexual references will be seen by the average teenager this year

1/2 of all teenagers are no longer virgins = 4919 in Abilene

1500+ commit suicide each year

53% of teenagers believe that Jesus sinned = 5314 in Abilene

83% of teenagers believe that truth is relative = 8366 in Abilene

65% of teenagers say there is no way to tell which religion is true = 6395 in Abilene

1/5 of teenagers contemplate suicide = 1968 in Abilene

If something doesn't change in the way that we REACH teenagers, the statistics indicate that in just 5-7 short years we could see only 4% of this generation being bible-believing Christians.

What this tells me is that we need to get up and get working.

Friday, January 26, 2007


We are at a crosspoint in our lives. The crosspoint of what I do not know. It is the strangest feeling. It is seriously a lot like being in a doctor's office waiting for your name to be called. These feeling have been with us for some time. More recently the seem to rise to our thoughts daily. Honestly more than daily...all day. When we sit together "it" is on our lips. Truly "it" is the overflow of our hearts.

Definition (by Debra)
"it"= the feeling of God changing us...drawing us away...closer to Him...preparing us for something...the overwhelming desire for the great adventure with him...the desire of our heart simply to do what he is calling us to do...the willingness to follow him that we really cannot fathom or explain...(it could go on and on).

Ernest is a part of the Abilene Youth Coalition. It is a group of Youth Pastors who get together once a week. They have the great privilege to go to the school campuses to meet and talk with students as well as pray over the campus in between lunches. Ernest is pretty new to the group but I can tell you that he has loved every minute of it. It has been great to talk with and pray with people who share a burden with you. We are all pumped to win Abilene for Christ. This generation is being lost. They have so much to deal with. This Wednesday we are having 'AI Briefing' which is going to be a big city wide service to get everyone aware of the needs around them. In doing this we hope to get people involved in reaching out to the next generation. Last week in church Ernest gave some statistics that totally blew people away. I will try to get them up for you. It really seems like the adult population is very unaware of what our teens are struggling with. If you would like to see more on this click here.

After the last meeting Ernest came home with some exciting news. One of the area youth pastors had stopped him with something to share. He began to talk to Ernest..."I don't know what you and your wife are dealing with but God has not taken you guys off my mind...Every time I looked at you I could see it in your face...Whatever it is...the time is is going to happen soon..." Of course that is not word for word. I was not there. One thing I know for sure is that God was. These men know nothing about what we have been talking about, God just wanted to show us that he does. We get so weary in the waiting room. We still have no idea what "it" is but we do know that "it" is real.

The vision at this point is to be communicators to youth. We have the great privilege to do that weekly at our church. For some reason God is growing that vision. We look at ourselves and think..."not us." What we have said to our God, we will follow you. I am currently writing a book for teen girls. I don't know how to do this. God is doing it. We dream of teaching together the very same principles that God himself taught to us. We both grew up as "Christians" and yet we missed the very point of that...relationship. Our students are missing that too. We would give our lives away so that they can know truth. If you want to know more about my story go here and find the link "my story".

I had such an urgency to share this today. I don't know why. This blog is intended as a journal for us. Our desire is to look back and see faithfulness. Wherever or whenever the "it" is, It will be by the leading of our Father. How I love him! What grace!

In love with Him,


Monday, January 22, 2007


I think I just finished my first chapter for my first book. WOW! I have a lot of work still to do on it but I am so happy that this has been accomplished. God is so faithful! I just wanted to share...


Wednesday, January 17, 2007


Oh the grace that covers me! I am so loved by my father in heaven. His grace is so much more than "enough". I am just sitting here writing and a great song came on the radio. I had to turn it up and sing along. Your grace covers me... I stand in awe of you...and honestly why you would do that for me.

So much more than enough...

in much love...


Tuesday, January 16, 2007

I am so happy

I worked out this morning! If you only knew how much of an accomplishment that is. I so desire to do it yet I don't. I guess I cannot say that anymore because on this rare day, I did! I have been feeling so sluggish lately. I would love it if you would pray for me to continue working out.

I just needed to share that.

Off to study and write...


Sunday, January 14, 2007

Ernest's Look Alikes

I am loving this. I can't wait to show Ernest!

My Celebrity Look Alikes

What can I say, I am a little bored.


Dreaming of Sunny Days

This is my 5th consecutive day in the house. My kids have been sick but are now better. The temperature today is 22 and we have a major freeze going on. We decided that I should keep them in since they have just become well.

All that to say...I have cabin fever!

What to do with my time? I have been searching out condos on South Padre Island. That is where we would like to vacation this summer. It is not a far drive from Abilene and it is water. It meets my criteria. We camped last year (Ernest's choice) so the beach this year.

I am so ready for warm water and sun. It is sort of hard to plan when we don't know the dates of vacation yet. Our summers are usually very busy. I thought about going Spring Break but quickly changed my mind due to all the partying there.

I am just looking for a little beach house or condo hopefully on the water. I am trusting God to point us in the right direction. A place to go and revive our souls and love on the children.

Will you pray with me?

I know it may seem simple but I would appreciate it.

Thursday, January 11, 2007

my desire

Where you are going...I really do not know. What I do know is that I want to be there. Following you. I so desire to be with you. A great adventure with you. You have brought peace to my heart. I praise you for that. You are so much to me. You have brought me so far yet there is still far to go. I trust in you.

Help me to be careful to do what you have commanded. That I would keep on the right track not turning left or right of your direction. I want to walk in your way to the place that you desire me to be. I love that verse. I so thank you for giving it to me.

Prepare me for the steps ahead.

In love with you.


Wednesday, January 10, 2007

Influenza type A

Colton has the flu. The doctor said that he has the worst kind. Not so much fun. He is so tired and weak. It is really hard to see him this way. Please keep him in your prayers. We are all on tamiflu now.

The thing he will be most upset about will be missing his first basketball game. Poor little guy.

His sweet little face was so sincere as we said our prayers tonight. God is so good! I know that he will bring comfort to my boy.

Monday, January 08, 2007

9 years already?

On this day 9 years ago, Carly graced us with her presence. I have never been the same. She changed me in so many ways. The amount of love that you have for your child is just not measurable. I was just trying to think of my life before Carly and to be honest there was not much of one. I had her at the young age of 21. I was so starry eyed about marriage and motherhood.

So many things about that day I will treasure always. The way I could not keep my eyes off her, the way we whispered when she slept, It was such a wonderful day. It was love at first sight. She was mine and I was hers...Forever. She looked so cute in her "bring home" outfit. Dressing her was all I dreamed about. I had found my place in life. Yes, that is how I felt.

She is growing so quickly. We walked the mall today and chatted the whole time. When did that happen? She loved every minute of this special day. Everyone she came in contact with knew that it was her birthday. She woke us this morning saying, "Come on guys, you are burning daylight on my birthday...get up."

I love that little girl. She is my favorite girl in the whole world. How very lucky I am.

Thank you Father for entrusting me with this precious child. I adore her. Teach me how you desire her to be loved. Grow her love for you. Leaning on you.


Thursday, January 04, 2007

inmost thoughts

The great adventure.

I long for it daily.

I dream about you.

It requires much faith.

Believing big.


Tuesday, January 02, 2007

Home Improvements 2

Here are some pictures of our recent home improvement projects. The are "mostly" finished.

The Kitchen:
We painted the cabinets & the walls. Later we are going to change the lighting.

The Loft:
We painted the walls, bought a futon, created a desk (for me) & got an extra t.v. for gaming/cartoons.

Wisdom for 2007

This is something that I posted in my devo blog...I thought I would share it here...enjoy.

Proverbs 3
1 My son, do not forget my teaching, but keep my commands
in your heart, 2 for they will prolong your life many
years and bring you prosperity. 3 Let love and faithfulness
never leave you; bind them around your neck, write them
on the tablet of your heart. 4 Then you will win favor and a
good name in the sight of God and man. 5 Trust in the Lord
with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding;
6 in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make
your paths straight.

7 Do not be wise in your own eyes; fear the Lord and
shun evil. 8 This will bring health to your body and
nourishment to your bones. 9 Honor the Lord with
your wealth, with the firstfruits of all your crops; 10 then your
barns will be filled to overflowing, and your vats will brim over
with new wine. 11 My son, do not despise the Lord's discipline
and do not resent his rebuke, 12 because the Lord disciplines
those he loves, as a father the son he delights in.

13 Blessed is the man who finds wisdom, the man
who gains understanding, 14 for she is more profitable
than silver and yields better returns than gold. 15 She
is more precious than rubies; nothing you desire can
compare with her. 16 Long life is in her right hand; in her
left hand are riches and honor. 17 Her ways are pleasant
ways, and all her paths are peace. 18 She is a tree of life to
those who embrace her; those who lay hold of her will be
blessed. 19 By wisdom the Lord laid the earth's foundations,
by understanding he set the heavens in place; 20 by his
knowledge the deeps were divided, and the clouds
let drop the dew.

21 My son, preserve sound judgment and discernment,
do not let them out of your sight; 22 they will be life
for you, an ornament to grace your neck. 23 Then
you will go on your way in safety, and your foot will
not stumble; 24 when you lie down, you will not be afraid;
when you lie down, your sleep will be sweet. 25 Have no
fear of sudden disaster or of the ruin that overtakes the
wicked, 26 for the Lord will be your confidence and will
keep your foot from being snared.

27 Do not withhold good from those who deserve it, when
it is in your power to act. 28 Do not say to your neighbor,
"Come back later; I'll give it tomorrow"-- when you now have
it with you. 29 Do not plot harm against your neighbor,
who lives trustfully near you. 30 Do not accuse a man
for no reason-- when he has done you no harm. 31 Do
not envy a violent man or choose any of his ways, 32 for
the Lord detests a perverse man but takes the upright into
his confidence. 33 The Lord's curse is on the house of the
wicked, but he blesses the home of the righteous. 34 He
mocks proud mockers but gives grace to the humble.
35 The wise inherit honor, but fools he holds up to shame.

In this new year I beg you to change my heart and make it more like yours. I love your word. Your grace in my life has been great and I am thankful. A debt that I can never repay. I sit in awe of your presence and goodness. You, who are the one who can fulfill my inmost desires,I love. I so desire you. More of you and less of me.

In great love.

Monday, January 01, 2007

Snow Lift 2006

What great fun!

It has been a busy week. We went to Springfield, Mo. for Snow Lift Winter Camp. It is a long trip from Abilene to Springfield. Our students didn't mind the 12 hour bus ride. They will do almost anything to have a good time.

What can I say, I love camp! I wonder if I will ever grow out of it? It is not the activities for me...I could live without dodge ball. The presence of God is so present there. It is time when our students hold nothing back. They worship their father like no one else is watching. For a moment nothing else matters to them. I love that! In that place worship is so free. Why can it be like that when we get home? The weight of judgmental eyes on them is much. Oh Lord please teach us all to love more and worship freely.

I still stand amazed at why God has allowed me to minister to girls. I feel honored and humbled. I love them. When their heart breaks I am right there with them. Their tear stained face in the act of surrender is so beautiful. Thank you God for allowing me see your handiwork. You love them so much and I get to experience you lavish it on them. How amazing you are. Those moments are priceless.

Ernest also spoke at a break out session. He titled it "Don't Fight Naked". I was in the girls sessions but I heard that he did a great job. He spoke about being spiritually prepared to fight the daily battle. He gave the guys some practical advice and tips to use everyday. I love that man and I am very proud of him.