Sunday, May 06, 2007

The Road to the Waterpark

What do you say when people ask? It has been a week since the world has known of our departure. Everyone is curious. Everyone would love to know where we are going and what we are planning. What we have to tell them is...We don't know. It has been some kind of week. For the most part I have been feeling pretty confident in the movement of God. It (the deep worry pit in my stomach) just strikes in the moments when the look on their face turns to dread and even a deep worry or sadness for me. Then there is the exact opposite of you are just flying on faith aren't you?

To not have answers is always hard for me. I am a want to know kind of girl. God is teaching me so much.

Can I interject to say this: I love my house. I have loved this house since our good friends Caleb and Reagan owned it. I couldn't even fathom that one day it would be mine. This afternoon was spent on the porch reminding God all the things I love about my home. For instance, the tile counter tops, the loft, my new back porch, surely not last but our garage. It has been the first time I have ever has a garage door opener. I was surprised at the tears that streamed down my cheeks. Lord you just gave this to me do I really have to give it back now?

Then I remembered this time while driving with our kids to Branson from Springfield. We were taking them to a Waterpark for the day. They were so stoked. I cannot remember their exact age but we are talking small (preschool). If you know anything about Branson then you know that you pass a strip with a hundred hotels and attractions. The water park was at the end of this strip. Our girl could hardly wait. It got to a point that every time she would see a pool in front of a hotel she would say "daddy can we just stop here?" "No honey this is not the park that we are going to" she would then reply "I don't care about the park because this pool is big and I want to play here." This went on until we came to the park. When we walked beyond the entrance and she beheld all that was before her you better believe that she was glad that she did not settle for the measly pool.

We learned a lot that day. Today God brought that memory back to me a hundred fold. Do you see where I am going?

I don't know when we will get to the 'water park'. The drive may be long. I do know that I will be there when I am in his will. I will be happy there. I cannot stop short even if it means giving up my pretty counter tops.

I have been emotional today. I guess I will have these days. If you are still reading

So yes, we still know nothing. There are many hard moments but God is pressing through them to reveal his perfect will. I stand in awe of HIM.

This is the adventure I had been asking for...


Jamie said...

I know this feeling all too well.

We moved to TN from TX 4 years ago and had nothing concrete to move to. Yes Aaron had the band, but there were not steady dates and nothing was on the calendar for the fall. I had NO job and was supposed to earn the money while the band was getting started.

We left a full time church job to pursue a dream. I am so thankful that we did. GOD has done BIG BIG BIG things in our lives since that departure.

It was so scary for us and yet so exciting. When we moved up here to follow a dream .... I ended up pregnant and that wasn't planned. I have basically worked part time since then and the band has been our main source of income and four years later and two kids later it is great. God has blessed us tremendously.

SO all that rambling to say I have felt that same pit in the bottom of my stomach.

Amanda's got Baby Bangs said...

That'll preach! The day I met my hubby for the first time we went to the very waterpark.

Teri said...

Go God! Good stuff Debra! He is giving you so much good preaching material for that incredible speaking ministry you are embarking on! WaHoo!

Sunni at The Flying Mum said...

that's the perfect analogy, Debra! You wait for that great, big waterpark!

Jen said...

I love your analogy! That really makes me step back and think. I can't wait to see where the Lord leads you guys!

Anonymous said...

Wow. Your faith continues to amaze me! I can not wait to see what God has in store for you guys as a family, I know it will be GREAT! We will keep you in our prayers. Love and miss you guys! CJ

Anonymous said...

and i smile when i look up and see the name of your blog after reading this post.

by faith.

Lindsee said...

I stopped by from the LPM blog. Can I just say that this post absolutely spoke to me!!

This adventure is scary, but I have learned that it is SO worth it, even with out the answers! I've always heard, be careful what you pray, because he is faithful and will answer. If this is the adventure you've been waiting for...then so be it.

Even if the waiting stinks. I am so there!!

jen said...

I love the story. Love it. Many times I've found myself wanting to hang on, forgetting for a moment the "bigger picture". But I know this, God is awesome and I wanna be where He is. You may not know your future, but He does. Get on that soda-straw slide and shout for joy on the ride of your life!